I am a creature of habit.
I constantly seek out routine and work hard to keep a fairly regular schedule.
I am a planner and a list-maker.
I love having set days for certain things–grocery shopping every Friday, or going to they gym on Tuesdays and Thursdays, or Saturday pancake breakfasts. It makes me feel secure and comfortable.
But I also love change.
I am constantly coming up with new ideas for things we should do–completely change the way my family eats, move to Europe, sell our house and get a farm, chop my hair off and get a pixie cut, rearrange all the furniture in the house and switch the bedrooms around.
Some of these ideas don’t involve major life changes and can just fit right in on the path we’re already taking–I chopped 11″ of hair off last year which was a major change for me, but didn’t affect anything else. Some of them create slight detours that become the new normal–we changed our diets and never looked back. Some of them are mutually exclusive–we cannot live in the house we live in, which I love and dedicate a large portion of my life to cleaning, decorating, and renovating AND also live on a farm or in Europe. I just like to try those ideas on in my mind and imagine what might be.
Side note: I think it’s super fun for Matt when I come up with these new ideas and then try to convince him we should completely change our lives. I’m kind of a pain in the ass, I guess.
I’m not sure how to reconcile those two parts of my personality–I love routine and I crave change. I am happy and in love with my life as it is, but I know there are so many other things I want to try. I’m content, but not permanently.
I think more than change, what I love is adventure and possibility. You have this one life to fit in all the crazy fun amazing beautiful things you want to do, and every day you don’t do something you’ve always wanted to do is one less day you have to do it.
So I think of all the amazing things I want to do.
And then I want to figure out how to do them, because at the end of it all I don’t think I will regret an adventure or a change as much as I will regret having stayed the course because it was easier and it was expected.
If you could do anything…what would you do?